Well it is for me, and then some.  I'll be cranking up the AC shortly.  Feeling better from the whatever it was I had last week but still doing a lot of sleeping, especially when it's hot and humid.  Went to the State and to Social Security late last week and came away with instructions to bring in more paperwork, which I have all gathered up and ready to go now.  Of course today being the Monday after a Sunday holiday no government offices are open.  So tomorrow will be a busy day.  I have to have the doctor redo the paperwork he did last week because the state caseworker wants to use their SSI Disablity advocate to help expidite my claim and get me on Disability quickly.  I qualify for  medicaid, foodstamps and after tomorrow cash assistance from the state which is why the caseworker wants to get my disabiity going. 

That's pretty much what I was hoping for anyway.  If I can't work I think I should be on disablity rather than welfare since it is available.  Right now though I'm broke, hopefully after tomorrow I'll have a better grip on funds.   I need to start getting more wholistic and natural foods to help with keeping my flare ups to a minimum however I have found that the heat tends to make me flare and the pain can be unbearable.  It just feels as if my entire collarbone/clavicle and thorax are broken or badly bruised and the pain just won't go away.  That's going to be the first thing to discuss with the Rhumatoidologist when I go because I can't live with this pain for much longer. 

Been trying to get Shannon back up and running with the WIFI but so far not so good.  I found a new avenue to pursue however so this evening I'm going to try it and see what we can accomplish. 

The local vegetable stand has opened up today and I can't wait to start getting fresh corn, tomatoes ,cucumbers and green beans.  I'm going to buy large quantites of the corn and green beans and freeze them so they will be availsble later in the year.  Fresh green beans with a bit of olive oil and garlic....oh sooooooo good!

Well gotta get myself ready to pick up Shannon from work. She has tomorrow off so maybe she can join me on my running around tomorrow.  And if I get some cash I'm going to stop at the veggie stand.  Ta Ta for now

I'm still pretty shaken from the spill I took the other night.  Shannon and I spent the afternoon and most of Tuesday evening getting things in the livingroom squared away, she got the flat screen television hooked up.  We managed to get the other recliner into the livingroom as well. 

Now I have a mess in my room that I have to clean up and of crou

se that is going to take a bit of time feeling as I do.  Went yesterday to get some advice on the cough I've been having, got an antibiotic.  Discussed the next plan of action with the doctor about the Lupus and he filled out the medicaid paperwork so I can send it in today.

Once I get the insurance I will be able to set up an appointment with any rhumatoid specilaist even though the doctor's office has me set up with one tentavily for August.  The insurance will kick in sooner than that and I will be free to get in sooner and get on a 'healing path' sooner as well. 

I didn't know how tired I was yesterday until we got home.  Was going to go out and get the antibiotics after I took a brief nap but that "brief nap" wound up with me sleeping until night, woke up not feeling up to moving at all, got a glass of water, watched t.lv. and went back to sleep. 

Slept through until about 8:00 this morning, had to get up, make some calls, gotta take Shannon to work.  Took the dogs out and still feel "spaced".  When I get home I'll do a bit of "puttering" then back to bed.  I have to get my strength built back up. 

All those years I spent shielding my eyes from the sun because it hurt.  Joking about being "part vampire" .  The skin rashes that were unexplained, the dry scaly patches.  The sudden change from being able to lie in the sun for hours to running for cover because of the burning.  The lethargy, the fatigue for no reason.  Getting up doing the dishes then going back to bed because I had exhausted myself!  It finally has a name. 

Lupus, I am reminded how my fingers and toes hurt when it's cold.  Sometimes I have to run my hands under warm water to stop them from hurting.  How did I get it?  Where did it come from?  Is it hereditary? My paternal grandmother was in a wheel chair throughout most of my childhood.  I remember there being said she had "rhumatism" could that have been Lupus?  Why wasn't I diagnosed sooner? 

I had been to the doctor many times 3 years ago complaining of the aches and pains, had pneumonia which the doctor turned around and said she wasn't treating me for...she kept upping the dosage of my thyroid medication and telling me that I needed to loose weight.  But she wouldn't listen when I would tell her that exercise totally exhausted me and that my joints were in constant pain.  I had a lump at my elbow I wanted her to look at and she just threw up her hands and said "Fine we'll get an mri of that arm", and out the door she went. 

The lump on my arm the knots in my back/shoulder all from Lupus, the swelling of my feet not water retention but a symptom of Lupus.  If it is hereditary will Shannon have it?  Oh I don't want her to go through this.  The constant pain, the inablity to actually enjoy a shopping spree at the mall.  The need to return to bed because you took the dogs out and are exhausted now...